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Out Of My Mind And Body...
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| Been Awhile since I've been here. The holidays were fun. Lots of cold weather this year which is unusual where I am located. Thing change so rapidly in my life. always something different. Wow our planet is a mess in many ways. Still life is not so bad. just lots of tribulations. We will get thru them, we always do. Things happen the way they are suppose to. I believe that. Gotta run for now. | ||||||||
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| This is one of my favorite times of the year. I hope it cools off soon. The fall colours are very pretty. I love the holidays, even though they can be a bit sad. My friend on Line and I were talking about missing people. Then a friend came over, and we talked about missing people. They both seem to dwell pretty heavy in the past. I try not to do that. I don't have that kinda time to be upset over things you can not change. what was is just that, in the past. I don't actually get depressed, but I have had down times. The down times don't ever last long. and they come years apart. being sad over a situation is not the same thing as being depressed. I would suck at being depressed. Prolly joke about it and stuff. I told one friend I don't really miss people after they move out of my life. Don't really miss people that are in my life either. I do wish them well, and hope they find whatever they are looking for. after someone is gone, I try to remember the good things about them and leave it at that. I think Losing Steve Irwin was sad, but he did his job, so he earned his eternal sleep. Ok, I'm gonna go read some poe. bbl. P.s. the witching hour is near. Did I say witching? i meant biatching...haha cya | ||||||||||
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| X friends are funny. Maybe it's because when they become x friends, the things they do, are sometimes annoying and childest. Older adults are even worse. Its like when they get over 35, you need to rediaper them and teach um the word no. Most of the time, I'm very very grateful none of the ones I'm thinking of, are my parents. I guess I'm childish too, when I'm angry. Ok, so whats new, let me see..well, my cousin who works for time warner, found this guy lying in the middle of the road. So he stops to help him and just before he gets out of the truck, a cop hits him. Not his fault, but still happened. So my cousin, who is a tall big guy, gets out of the truck and walks over to the cop and says hey buddy are you ok, do you need a hug ...true story..gotta go. It's 4 am almost.. Words for the day, If I wasn't wanted somewhere, I wouldn't make a fool of myself and keep going back. It makes no sense. And if someone continuously says, I'm a nice person, you gotta wonder why they are trying to convince you or are they trying to convince themselves. Nice people move on. Hi to Jen and Aj..So the word for the day Is Jalapeno.. P.S. | ||||||||||
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| If Lucy had been boring, Ricky would of went back to Cuba. Key word is "Vitameatavegamin." | ||||||||
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| My uncle is running around the house with a blood pressure cuff, tryiung to take everyones blood pressure. Deja vu. Pretty sure i've been here before. I wouldn't let him take mine. Was wondering why. Maybe i think I have it, and don't wanna hear the lecture after. Oh well, gonna go stuff my face. and then do something to raise my blood pressure so he will think I'm dying. Will be glad when he goes home. God knows what he will check for next!!!!!! AJ Rawks... | ||||||||
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| This hurricane has done horrible things. People hurting eachother for food and water. People dying. Even if war is useful or useless, needless lives are always wasted. I wonder if I started walking from my past, would I feel the need to look back? Probably so. I always go back to the past. | ||||||
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| Wayc Goodluck in school!! This is a slow night, not really bad though. Love you AJ u rawk.. usually. I'm hungry. Love you Daddy. | ||||
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| I was listening to Procol Harum Conquistador, when I realized just how bad I wanted to have lived in the 60's and 70's. Jethro Tull, watergate, Jimi Hendrix and Herbie goes to Monte Carlo. From the Movies Grease, Saturday Night Fever, and Rocky Horror Picture Show, to the kitchen. "It's shake and bake and I helped." Love is like a butterfly? I think it's more like a sledgehammer to the heart. Reguardless, I have to say one of my all time fav bands is Pink Floyd: Dark Side Of The Moon - 1973. or Led Zeppelin: Physical Graffiti Kashmir. Life is too cosmetic today. Full of material objects and rap hate/anger. Crosby, stills, Nash and Young said "teach your children well." Theres an understatement. Oh well, HUman emtion is at an all time low, but I still love the 60's and the 70's. "I'd Like to Teach The world to sing in perfect harmony"-hillside singers "And she's buying her stairway to heaven" Led Zeppelin | ||||||||
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| Whenever i have walked past this place in my life. Whenever i have walked past this place in my life. Whenever i have walked past this place in my life. This circle we have made and broken. <3 | ||||||||
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| I miss u... Nothing else to say. | ||||||
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| sometimes people look away from truth or things that stir their souls. We need those things to keep our hearts from emptiness. In these days, there is a new name for everything that afflicts us. Depression, bipolar etc...It is all just emptiness of the self. Nothing to beleive in. No moral fullfillment. All the pills and doctors in the world, will not cure the search for inner happiness and peace of mind. People use the medication as a means of hiding from reality. I know some are truly sick, but many are not. Don't be blind to changes around you. p.s. I'm so sick of hearing well if there is a God, why does he let these bad things happen? People are resposible for themselves and everything else is nature in the making. Stop looking for reasons to not believe in something. Analyzing it to death will only cause yourself emptiness. I have some very intelligent friends, who walk around smothered in emptiness and self pity. Waiting for other people to make them happy. I don't understand how some so smart can be so dense. Enlighten yourself with truths and guidance. Those who bring you down, well, you know the saying. "Misery loves company" I wrote this pose for another forum. Am gonna post it hear too.. Oh yeah, I love AJ. <---My favorite person to argue with lol... These Times, hear not, see not... Hear not, see not. Keep you're mind narrow and you're heart empty. Isn't that what we do. Is it not easier to look away, than to face these truths. Bathe in these material times, but the soul will seek it's destiny. Changes blowing a fragrance with moments to spare. Feeling a stir in this DENSE atmosphere. Hear not, see not. | ||||||||
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| Things i do not like: 1. People who do not listen. 2. Those who look for ways to walk around a problem, rather than solving it. 3. My insecurities... 4. Seein the word "I" in a relationship, is not good. Maybe isolation and solitude are neighbors. Sometimes isolation is the peace of mind one is seeking. Or when someone says " I need space" Really means you're getting on my last nerve. When you can do nothing right in the eyes of those who matter, what does that leave one with? Isolation? Solitude? Being submissive is scary. It's easier to push the submissivness away, argue the point, and later wonder why you weren't submissive. The phrase "catch 22" comes to mind. I want to be the princess, but I feel pushed into queendom. I dispise women who control everything like some mid-3vil witch. I don't want to be a Feme Nazi. Open the door for me and see me as a Lady please. He drives me... <3 | ||||||
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| My emptiness spills into a greater realm of darkness, when my comfort deludes me. My comfort is my home. My home is the love of my life. The love of my life is my heart, and he knows it. When he speaks, I am either calmed or irrupted. My soul is seduced and enslaved by his power of strength. I am lured by his desires and jealous of those who gaze at him. His day of birth is my reckoning. With him always lingers my soul. *kiss* I love you AJ. | ||||||
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| I don't see any heros lingering here to smile with me. They have moved on to shine for others. Empty words bore me. Candy rawks. My dreams have changed and my passions are a train length of secrets. None knows who I am anymore. Like it that way. I love the way he says my name... | ||||||
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